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“Do not worry. You have always written before and you will write now. All you have to do is write one true sentence. Write the truest sentence that you know.”
                                                   — Ernest Hemingway

one true sentence. the truest sentence i know.

i am lost…

i have been living my life without much direction the last few years. kinda just floating along, doing all the things i need to do, and the ones i think are expected of me. but not doing what i want to do. it seems i get caught up in the routine of the every day and then every day gets away from me. we all say it, so much to do and so little time to do it.

i am a mom. i have two kids. i wear many hats…

alarm clock, chef, chauffeur, referee, playmate, housekeeper, CFO, laundress, fashion adviser, hairdresser, personal assistant, nurse, teacher, monster hunter, cheerleader, photographer, counselor, handyman, seamstress, life coach and role model (oh, i’m sure i left something out). so it’s a 24/7 job. it keeps me busy. some days i lose track of me in all i need to do.

this is not a rant. i am not complaining. i love my kids. but some days i find it hard to find time to take off my many mother hats and put on the hat of the woman i was before they came along. the hat of the writer who took classes, workshops and ran a writing group.

and so this quote…and this post. a reminder that i am a writer and though i may not be writing as much as i have in the past, i am and will always be a writer. and by acknowledging that i have been lost it also helps me to realize that if i am finding time to write (even if it is in the wee hours) than i am finding myself again.

i think about other parents i know, single parents and couples with children. so many of them find themselves sitting up late reading, watching tv, writing, playing video games, or just staring into space enjoying the quiet. i think it is in those late hours — when the house is quiet save for the reassuring sighs of the sleeping children — that we are able to collect ourselves and remember who we are. because only when we remember who we are can we be a good role model and then take on the many roles/challenges our lives demand of us.

what about you? do you sometimes lose yourself in the responsibilities of your life? how do you re-connect with yourself in the midst of the everyday? especially when a getaway is not an option?